So they started planning for the trip, and a guy she fooled around with in highschool (5 years ago) lived on campus at Concordia uni. This lowlife piece of shit still kept in contact with her and was really good friends with the gf's friend....so they decided that instead of spending money at a hotel, theyd crash at his place. My gf told me all the details pretty much as to what she was going to do there, whered she stay, and etc (again shes not a party girl or a drinker, and I truly trusted her with all my heart.) I knew she was going to be staying with some past fling, and looking in retrospect I dont know what I was thinking....but i trusted this girl more than I trust myself.
On the last day before she was coming back, when her friend went to take a shower, it was just my gf and this guy alone. The guy had told her he liked her and she said nothing could happen and she gave him a hug. He went in for the kiss and she kissed him back and did not pull back. When my gf got back from the trip she told me 3 days after. After they kissed, she said nothing could happen, he apologized to her...That night was the only night she was planning on going clubbing. That same guy had tagged along with the girls. So like i said earlier, she doesnt drink, but this night the same guy had baught her two drinks and she accepted it. Nothing had happened after that, but this is driving me crazy. She first kissed the guy, went clubbing with him, accepted his drinks (and its obvious why that lowlife was buying her drinks) and then she comes back initally telling me how amazing the trip was. But then on the third day back, she breaks down and weeps and confesses to everything.
Shes constantly been calling me and trying to get me to forgive her. I REALLY want to forgive her, bc i love her with all my heart, and im just in complete and utter shock. I never in my nightmares could have imagined she would ever do something like this to me. Shes my best friend and normally anytime something happens, shes the first person I tell. I dont want to tell any of my other friends about this cuz firstly I dont want ppl to think negatively about her, and secondly I feel so ashamed. Thats why i've come on here to post what has happened and hopefully get ur opinions.
I've spent a lot of time on the phone with her and am now beginning to come to grips and pick myself back up. I want our relationship to work, but every little thing just gets to start thinking of what transpired and how I can ever be the same again. I know time heals all, but I'm really hoping someone here has experienced something that Im going through and has a happy ending to it all.
Thanks for reading my long post, I would truly appreciate any help.