her reasoning being: "Ive thought alot about it over the winter break, and i noticed that my feelings have plateaued, and ive decided that i dont want to be in a relationship with anyone right now"
im completley crushed, ive never actually cried over stuff like this, but i bawled my eyes out for a good 2 hrs. She was literally everything i could have asked for in a girl; well mannered, shy, innocent, down to earth, and alot of the same likes and dislikes. We were both virgins (and we still are, never got to do anything), and we were both each others first relationship. Not to mention, she was beyond beautiful
i feel so hopeless and empty, i feel like no girl will ever be as good as her. I shared so many good moments with her, Ive been with her for 4 months now (8 if you wanna count 4 months of long distance). Though its shallow, I feel i will never find another virgin my age (20 years old, im pretty pathetic i know), but i dont want to lose mine to a girl who's experienced, its just the standard ive set for myself. I dont think anyone can really relate to how i feel due to my standards. I waited so long to find a girl that fit my standards, and she was the angel i was searching for. now shes gone
i dont see myself ever replacing her. She was one in a million, i was lucky to even find her. I had to go through so many women to find the one who fit my standards. Shallowness aside, her personality was simply golden.
my friend has been telling me not to even try getting back with her, but right now, its the only thing on my mind; to get back with her. So far, ive only told her that i respect her decision. Ive not done anything rash like beg her to stay, or anything like that. I feel that, we never spent enough time together, and thats why her feelings could never grow (we literally went on dates maybe every other week, and mostly talked through texts)
i feel that, if we spent more quality time together, and less b.s. texting, she could let her feelings grow, and thats why i want her back. If anyone has gotten back with an ex girlfriend, please tell me how they did so, if it actually works/ is worth attempting? How long should I wait before i can start talking to her again, and what should i tell her? Or do i just simply move on and pray to some deity that someone better will come along? either way, it all seems hopeless to me.