however, there have been a few instances when i notice her acting different in public with me. for example, she'll look at other people (both guys and girls) as we talk, which I have confronted her about, saying it is very disrepesctufl towards me. she said she understands and would try to fix it. another time we were both at a chill party with some friends and she acted very strange, whenever a certain guy would walk in the room she would let go of my hand and make it seem like she wasn't with me. (thats what it seemed like to me) however, when i asked her about it she said she didn't do it on purpose and that if she did unconsciously she was sorry about it. this new years though we were at a dub step concert grinding and i noticed a guy to our right standing alone. she kept looking to the right as if she was looking at the guy standing and i even asked her what she looking at, and she responded, "nothing". later that night we were about to leave when one guy out of 3 smiled directly at her and she smiled back, and i said, "could you look at me as we talk?", but she kept glancing back even though i asked her. later when i confronted her about those two situations that night, she denied both. we have been in a argument about that for a few days, mainly just me accusing her and her continually denying it. on the 2nd day, she eventually admitted that she did those things but then took it back later that day and said "i can't believe I lied to myself to try to gain your trust". i feel like either she is telling the truth or in extreme denial.
what i don't get is that i know i saw those things but she is so confident in denying whatever i accuse her of. i want to believe her but at the same time i can't deny what i see. it's the fact that she denies things that makes me upset more than the fact that she actually does them. either way, i feel like both the denial and actions are disrespectful towards me and not appropriate in a relationship.
in about two weeks we will have to go long-distance b/c of school, and i will only see her about once every 2-3 weeks. i'm worried that if she can't admit things, and (in my opinion) does them right in front of me, i feel like then she will never admit something like cheating on me. should i just break her off? helppp