We gave each other space for about 2 months, then I began to try to get her back because I loved her. I didn't rush it, I took things slow. I went to see her once or twice a week, and called/texted her once in a while. In early August, the momentum seemed to be on the positive side, so I asked her if we could work things out but not necessarily jump right into a relationship, but take the steps to move forward in that direction. She didn't want to, and she said "you deserved better", implying a weird notion.
I was devastated at that point, then rumors started coming out. Whether or not they were true, I was willing to forgive if they were, but she kept distancing herself from that point.
I was really good to her, really good. When I reflect back, I know I do deserve better, but I just cant seem to get over the relationship. I talk to friends and family, I read articles on how to get over relationships, I keep myself busy with school and work, I go out socially to bars/clubs, I do the things I love like basketball, video games, cooking, snowboarding, and etc. but I just cant seem to get over her.
This is my second relationship, as I was just like this after the first one. I try to use the first one as a guide to getting over it this one. Maybe I'm just being impatient, and time will eventually heal all.
But as of right now, I'm sad that I can't be the best "me". I can't be genuinely happy or even content. All I'm doing is covering up the pain. I've done everything to get over her, but I just cant seem to get over her. I can't seem to fully let go..
Thoughts/advice? Thank you..