So after these two months of talking I really got to know her better, now I want her even more. I built trust (something we lacked) cause of the way she opened up to me and told me things that I never knew when we were together. Skeletons came out the closet so I accepted em, I don’t care, past is the past. So if she decided to come back I told her we would know what were getting from one another. She said that she wants to see where the new guy goes first. Now im the fallback guy?, lol. Hard to take in specially after saying she still has ‘much love for me’ saying goodnight with ‘xoxo’ after it, giving me smiley faces with kisses on em lol, sounds corny but it means something. its kinda misleading me. We still got a lot of emotion for each other I feel. And we still have a bond , a history and shared life together so it makes it confusing. we’ve been through a lot, alot of sacrificing to make things work, but we never really tried to work on them. We let them build up to basically see if they would work out themselves. Never really discussed anything while we were together. Now that we’ve split up we have. So you can tell we talked about a lot of things since the break up. Got a lot of things kinda worked out. But, I asked her what she saw in me when she talks to me and she said ‘ a very good friend, who knows me more than a lot of people , i can talk and trust you’. still thinking she doesn’t want nothing to do with me relationship wise I simply replied, ‘well im not a gay friend (lol) and that’s not what I really want so I wish you the best with everything’ . She replied in kind of a mad, upset way ‘seriously? Your just not right, fine, same to you..ttyl’..
so I don’t know what to do? .probably just wait to see if she contacts me? (this incident only happen 2 days ago) any advice would be cool. Ive had sex with girls and stuff nothing committed (I told her cause she asked), just think about this chick a lot …
idk? Let her go or stick around ? Tried to much? Did I push her away? Got a lot of questions
thanks. sorry if its long