My mom wants me to try Colorado so bad so I can see what opportunities are there for me but I can't help but decline every offer she throws at me simply because I don't want to deal with my older sister whose been very rude, disrespectful and goes out of her way to be mean to my mom bc of me (we're half sisters but it's sibling rivalry at its finest)
You know whats freaking funny about that statement, Avi? You accept that same treatment from your boyfriend and you're afraid to leave him but you'll turn down a loving offer from your mother to come home because you have some sister rivalry.
You need to get your priorities straight.
Go home and start fresh. Get away from the bastard you THINK you love and do your best to learn how to save money to buy your own place and learn to love YOU. The rest will follow.