I'm not sure if this is an appropriate place to post but I am fairly certain that my partner is suffering from depression. He told me last night (just before he went to sleep) that he wishes he could go to sleep and never wake up. When I asked him about it today, he said that he often feels like that.
There are many problems in our relationship and we often talk about the issues and how to make things work but his negative attitude to everything in life is making it very difficult to improve things. I have tried to be understanding and have compromised on many issues.
I should also point out that he has OCD with regards to cleanliness, germs and any related thing and that he expects me to be at least a size 10 and preferably an 8 with a flat stomach, and dress in a certain way. I am a size 12 and willing to lose some weight for my own health benefits but not excessively. I also do not agree with his idea of how I should dress so have settled for a 50/50 compromise. He is borderline agrophobic and will not go out of the house if he can stay in although this tends to change according to the activity and who it is with.
He was on the Internet this morning and when I came down the stairs I saw him on a "how to write your last will and testament" page.
I have strongly suggested that he speak to someone for professional help but he does not appear to be particularly motivated to get help. He wants to "have things out" with his sister but that is not the only problem and knowing them both and their inability to communicate and listen to each other, I can't see that this will help matters.
I would really like him to get professional help but I cannot force him to go. He acknowledges that he has a problem but all he wants to know is why he is on this earth!
Does anyone have any insights or pearls of wisdom?